I'm going to have an epileptic fit.

23:52 / 19.07.02

Soon. Like in the next half hour or so.

Given that I can't do anything about it, I thought it might be interesting to stay online as long as I can and tell you what transpires.

So.

Any questions?

23:55 / 19.07.02

shit. is someone there? can anyone help?

23:55 / 19.07.02

o know bugger all about epilepsy, and maybe it's something you manage perfectly well on your own. But if i can help, shout.

23:56 / 19.07.02

open the window ? drink something, if you can ? water, near ?
hell, stay quiet... i don't know what to do with this !
take care, MC, please !

23:57 / 19.07.02

It's not a problem-- I've been having them for years. I'll be completely fine, don't fret. I just thought it might be interesting for people to interact with me while i am in this odd state.

Just now everything is illuminated with a blush of yellow and rosy-pink.

Trijhaos

00:01 / 20.07.02

How bad is your epilepsy? I used to know a guy who had to have people around him when he had a fit so he didn't swallow his tongue.

00:01 / 20.07.02

Well, so long as you're okay. As okay as you can be. If there's any chance of you actually needing help, PM me your address? As I say, I know nothing about eplilepsy really, so it's a scary thing to me.

Persephone

00:02 / 20.07.02

Um, how are you doing now? Is Lurid home? Should somebody PM him?

00:06 / 20.07.02

whaoh. living with this must be pretty scary, even if you seems to have things in hands. but for me, "interact" with you on this kind of things seems quite strange. maybe too much for me !
but once again, if you need anything we could...

00:13 / 20.07.02

No, no-- everything is cool. Lurid is home, he's upstairs with my neighbour making an omelette. I am fine. I am safe. I just wanted to share this odd experience with you guys. It's not something that happens every day.

00:14 / 20.07.02

fortunately for you !

Tezcatlipoca

00:14 / 20.07.02

whaoh. living with this must be pretty scary, even if you seems to have things in hands

My sister is epileptic and has the same unsettlingly calm attitude about having her fits as MC seems to. In my experience it's generally those who witness the fits that go into a state of panic.

00:15 / 20.07.02

The thing I notice most are tones of blue. I see them everywhere, like crystals. My movements feel very stylized, as if I am taking part in a noh play or a puppet theatre.

fridgemagnet

00:15 / 20.07.02

hmm, you mean you can still type when you're fitting? I've not heard about that. I have a friend who's epileptic, but she mostly just goes blank, and she can't tell they're coming much in advance.

Tell us about what you're experiencing, if you can, it would be very interesting.

(trijhaos: i was under the impression that you couldn't swallow your tongue, and a lot of people lose teeth from well-meaning bystanders forcing things in their mouth to stop them... could be wrong)

00:17 / 20.07.02

Well, that would describe me! It is alien and therefore very scary to me. I've only once seen a guy have a fit, on a bus, and that seemed pretty awful. If you're okay, MC, I'm happy.

00:17 / 20.07.02

I can taste something, like salt but not salt. An illusiory flavour, on the tip of my tongue like a forgotten word. The keybord is bricks, sandstone bricks.

Trijhaos

00:17 / 20.07.02

That's what the guy told me. I was never around when he had a fit. So I could have been misinformed.

00:18 / 20.07.02

This is the aura. The fit comes later, a sensation like a fast train.

00:19 / 20.07.02

It's not going to be a bad one. It's come up fast. The slow burn is the worst.

00:21 / 20.07.02

It was the smell that told me. I smel lthings like burning herbs. Then they go, and when its over they're gone.

Higher than the sun :)

00:22 / 20.07.02

RIDE THE SNAKE!

00:24 / 20.07.02

I can feel a weight in my palms, like stone. But it is a stone that moves with me, weight without weight.

00:29 / 20.07.02

I can feel fragments of identity speaking to me. It gets harder to describe. I taste salt and something else. I exult in these moments. it's the payoff for the bad times, the weary times. In these moments I kiss God.

00:31 / 20.07.02

I can see all the colours now. under your skin! look at your hand. do you doubt that you contain an infinity of shades? tone and chroma chapter and verse. you are the book of madder-rose and indigo. my hands will be taken soon, for a while. but how lovely that i can speak colour with my hands, while the time lasts!

00:33 / 20.07.02

its coming. i break open like achrysalis, i split. cant say much more. but you are the divine! look at your hands, draw breth, and do not doubt that you taste eternity.

00:37 / 20.07.02

over soon. i would be a river if i could. i would bleed eternal/divine. wont see it when i wake up. see it NOW.

all colours. when you see all the colours. all the colours, in any one colour. that is to taste the divine. over soon. I want to remember! the keys look like bone, like brick. pyramids and saints toes. all colours. all the colours. they all saw all the colours.

00:40 / 20.07.02

keys like bone, but containign all colours. the colours never leave us. God is spectrum, infinite spectrum. sound, colour touch all a spectrum .

00:41 / 20.07.02

it comes. ill tell you in a minute. be fine. i love you

00:47 / 20.07.02

pfffffffff... i think i gotta go outside for a moment.
or maybe i gotta stop checking this topic !

00:54 / 20.07.02

It's over. I had the fit, I'm fine except I think I hit my elbow on something and I bit muy tongue. I'm going upstairs for hugs and food. See you in the moring.

00:56 / 20.07.02

Sleep well, MC. Glad you're okay.

Now June and I need a drink, I think!

Strange Machine Vs The Virus with Shoes

00:58 / 20.07.02

exactly, A ! it's my turn. just come over here for having a couple of drinks, would you ? and good night, MC.

01:05 / 20.07.02

Glug