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12:47 / 21.12.06

i am miserable because, well, i don't know if i really want to go into details, but something has happened that i knew was really likely to happen and even though it has, i still feel miserable about it. i read a great quote on a blog today that sums it up - unlike pie crust, you can't pre-bake grief...

18:46 / 22.12.06

Gee, I know I am an adult, but sometimes I just wish you would value me just a little bit more. You clean and clean and show little interest in interacting with me. Sometimes, I feel like you are trying to erase the mistakes you made in your life. Scrubbing and scrubbing like that stain you can never quite get out of the carpet...

I feel like that stain when you do this.

Pacific State: Dazzling
(prev. Essential Dazzler)

01:00 / 29.12.06

Genuine thanks to everyone who pitched in ideas last time I was here. None of them were useful, it was a pretty restrictive piece of work, and I'd no time to film anything else, but your ideas are being kept aside for future cock-ups.

Not drinking isn't going so well

Stoat-ROW ROW FIGHT THE POWAH

16:30 / 31.12.06

As you probably mostly know, I read newspapers for a living. There are few things more depressing than an entire night of seeing the Saddam "execution porn" shots over and over again.

23:26 / 31.12.06

agreed - our home page is the abc (australia) home page and for a whole day the picture was that very one (and we pop on and off line a lot). sickening and distressing. makes me think maybe i am going to want to protect my future children from the media (i never wanted to)...

03:31 / 02.01.07

Well, it's official (sorta). My girlfriend and I are now on a break, or broken up, or something.

Had such a good time with her in Thailand I'd forgotten about all this shit, but apparently she hadn't. As soon as I dropped her home she went cold. Another two days later and she gives me "the talk".

Part of me is relieved, 'cause I'm no longer stuck in the limbo of wondering, but it hurts.

Leigh Monster loses its cool

10:00 / 02.01.07

16 1/2 hour flight approaching rapidly.

11:20 / 02.01.07

Eegads! Where are you flying to?
At 16.5 hours you should be able to circumnavigate the globe...

foot long subbacultcha

14:32 / 02.01.07

broke up with my girlfriend. on new years eve of all times. miserable and ANGRY.

15:00 / 02.01.07

I am so miserable, i feel so depressed. I have my traditional Xmas and New year depression. I was too lazy to do all the staff I needed to school and now I´m going crazy. And I will probably brake up with my boy fried. What a great year 2007!

.... it seems like complaining made me feel better (for 2 seconds)

22:21 / 02.01.07

*snigger*

I was too lazy to do all the staff

*snigger*

Innuendo!

*snigger*

But yeah, sorry about all the breakups guys.

Um. I'll go.

23:23 / 02.01.07

Hmmm, what is it with New Years and killing relationships...

I think New Years is my new arch-nemesis.

00:56 / 03.01.07

Apparently there are more break-ups atthe turn of the year than at any other time. Makes sense.

Monkey Whistler
(prev. Cee Ess Nolte)

02:23 / 03.01.07

Ah... spent NY weekend in Paris with SO. She had her bag fuggin nicked on NYE as we were dancing. Some people's fingers I could take a monkeywrench to.. I hate thieves!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRRRRRRR...

foot long subbacultcha

11:16 / 03.01.07

There's a lot of expectation on New Years Eve. It's quite dangerous.

Before anyone else thinks of it, please resist the temptation to start a thread on New Years breakups. I'm pretty sure it won't help you!

Whisky Priestess

11:18 / 03.01.07

Surely just pre- and post-Valentine's Day has to be the worst?

Mistfink
(prev. Mistletoffelees)

11:33 / 03.01.07

At what time is that again?

Whisky Priestess

15:52 / 03.01.07

OMG THEY DON'T HAVE VALENTINE'S DAY IN GERMANY!!!

This explains a lot. How can Germans throw off the cliched image of a country of ice-hearted, clockwatching, monocled Teutons without a special day dedicated to *wuv*?

Whisky Priestess

15:53 / 03.01.07

February 14th, by the way.

Mistfink
(prev. Mistletoffelees)

19:06 / 03.01.07

This explains a lot. How can Germans throw off the cliched image of a country of ice-hearted, clockwatching, monocled Teutons without a special day dedicated to *wuv*?

That special day obviously is Mother´s Day!

And I do know the date for Valentine´s Day! I tried to be funny by doing the Homer improvisation of "Huh, when´s that again?" as a follow up to you as Marge stating that there is a danger of breaking up around that time.

23:57 / 05.01.07

my germ is big

[cough]

Pacific State: Dazzling
(prev. Essential Dazzler)

01:49 / 06.01.07

We just heard that our friend with Luekemia died.

03:19 / 06.01.07

Oh no! I'm very sorry to hear that.

A Haus of Minions

03:56 / 06.01.07

God, QCB&K - I'm sorry. That's.. well, you know how that is better than I do. Condolences.

Stoat-ROW ROW FIGHT THE POWAH

11:48 / 06.01.07

Ooh, shit, QC.

17:48 / 06.01.07

My housemate has just been split up with by his girlfriend of 4 years.

He's not at all self-confident and has a lot of inbuilt stress and other issues that might work to make the whole thing pretty disasterous for him. I'm really worried about what this will mean for him.

Obviously, if the relationship needed to finish, it was right to do so (there never seemed be any rows, i just think there was a slow weakening of the love) but this sort of thing never happens in a happy way.

I get the feeling this will take months or years for him to get over. He's a shy person and now he's out of university, he doesn't have a very wide social circle. Not that a small group of friends is a bad thing, but it isn't too conducive to finding a new partner.

Perhaps it will be better for him to be single for a while, but i worry about him being lonely if/when we move out of this house in June.

And he's gone back to his parents' for the evening, so i can't even talk to him about it or give him huggles.

Poor bastard.

Pacific State: Dazzling
(prev. Essential Dazzler)

17:04 / 09.01.07

That's.. well, you know how that is better than I do.

I'm not sure that I do, to be honest. The whole thing hasn't really sunk in yet. Everyone's back at Uni now, and we're all taking the day off for the funeral tomorrow, but no-one's prepared to talk about it yet it, just around it. This past weekend has just been quietly, unpleasantly, surreal.

It's the first time I've lost anyone close to me, it sounds silly but I've still not wrapped my head around him not being here. It feels absurd to just accept the finality of the whole thing.

17:36 / 09.01.07

That's the thing that surprised me about death: the horrible, ghastly absurdity

Mon Oncle Ignatius

18:16 / 09.01.07

It is, isn't it? Deaths of people close to me have made me laugh bitterly, cry and get angry, occasionally all at the same time. Sincere condolences often do seem to help, so if they do in this instance, here are mine.

A friend lost his mother to leukaemia recently, and it's a horrible way to go.

Stoat-ROW ROW FIGHT THE POWAH

00:51 / 11.01.07

Dagnabbit. I'd started seeing someone I'd had a major crush on for like years, and now I'm not anymore.

Ah well. This is why they invented whiskey and Firewater albums.

A Haus of Minions

00:58 / 11.01.07

Oh, ballsacks. Sorry, Stoatie. That is _rotten_.

*

01:23 / 11.01.07

Much love and support to my fellows here. Sorry I am not being more forthcoming just now.

dear sweet friend:

You need to be in charge of your own care. You're a grown person and you have the right to make informed decisions regarding your medical treatment, although the fact that you're at a children's hospital and the fact that you are physically little means that all the staff assume you are five. I didn't say anything when they took those particular treatment steps over your extremely clear objections. Maybe you should be really pissed at me for that (thank you for not being, though). But please please leave that tube in until they are satisfied you won't be vomiting blood anymore. Fuckmyeyes if I ever see another human being vomit that much blood again, unless they are an absolutely foul murderous individual with not one redeeming quality.

I am supporting your right to talk with a patients' rights advocate about your otions. But I am wanting to scream "fuck patients' rights, just do what the doctors tell you and live and get (marginally) better, okay?" I am hoping that neither of these things makes me a bad friend, or harms you. I also hope I don't piss your mom and grandma off any more in the process.

Now let me go sleep so I can be of use to you later.

Love.

01:24 / 11.01.07

*hugs Stoatie and id*

Mon Oncle Ignatius

01:51 / 11.01.07

*more sympathetic hugs all round*

02:04 / 11.01.07

Ditto the holds

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